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Carla's avatar

Hey, I just finally got around to reading this post now and it’s late and I just want you to know that I love you and you will get through this. I believe in you, you are one of the strongest women I know and I am lucky to have you in my life still as a friend after all of these years. I think of you every day when I look at that beautiful painting you gave us for our wedding. Just give yourself a little grace and I know you you’re strong and we all believe in you. I am not trying to diminish what you are feeling, but I want you to know that you are loved by so many of us. Again, it’s late so I hope this makes sense.

Alene N.'s avatar

Carla, thank you so much. Your words mean a lot to me, really they do. I have known you for how many years now? I appreciate your support and yes, I will get through this. It helps to know I have your love and support. I’m so glad you still enjoy the painting! I will be writing again as soon as I feel a little better. I’m hoping I the treatment works as well as it did last time. Sending love back to you! ❤️

Nancy Stordahl's avatar

Hi Alene,

I am sorry to hear about the darkness, and I sure hope you feel better soon. I'm glad you are starting treatment again, and I hope it works well. Take care of yourself, my friend. I know it's easy for me to say, but don't pressure yourself to get stuff done. You take top priority.

The trellis painting is beautiful. Sending love and hugs.

Alene N.'s avatar

Thank you, Nancy. As soon as I started having bad brain days, I knew something was off, because I’ve done so well for so long. I hope the ketamine works as well as it did before. Thank you for your support, in all things. I hope to be back to writing very soon. Sending love and hugs back.

Beth L. Gainer's avatar

Alene,

I'm so sad that you are suffering. Depression is serious, and I'm glad that tomorrow you will be starting to get help from it. You have the right idea in terms of trying to not allow shame and guilt into the picture. What you are going through is not your fault.

Take it easy on yourself. If you have to take a break from doing your splendid videos, then you have to take a break. Your mental and physical wellness are wrapped up together, so it's vital you put yourself first. And you are doing the right thing by seeking out help.

Don't worry about getting everything done. You are human. You are doing your best to cope. You're getting help.❤

Wishing for you to feel better.

Alene N.'s avatar

Thanks, Beth.